I had sad sad news this morning and it has stayed with me all day. I learned that a dear, sweet student of mine went ‘home’. She suddenly and swiftly crossed over. She left this life to continue her work unlimited from the body.
I have mixed feelings. I am in total grief for the dear loved ones she has left behind- her young daughter and husband and mother. So unfair. So heartbreaking. And yet after sending Reiki on and off all day to her family, and to the situation, and to her where ever she now is, I feel o.k. It’s as though she is saying. “It’s o.k. I’m free. I’m limitless. I’m peace. I’m joy. I’m home” I know she wouldn’t want me to sit and cry about her not being here. I know she is o.k. and trust this was her soul’s purpose and it was her ‘time’ to go. She was always light years ahead of everyone else when she was on the planet, so why would that be any different now?
But honestly it seems as though people are leaving the earth left right and centre lately. I don’t think it’s because I am getting older. The people leaving have been younger than me, or my age.
And this baffles me because it was not that many years ago my own doctors were telling me really bad news. I stubbornly (me? stubborn? never!) flat out refused what they said and got on with the business of getting well. I never once thought I was going anywhere. Ever. Now, after witnessing other women come and go, who have gone through something very similar to what I went through, I am humbled by the miracle my life is. Part of me feels in a way that I am unworthy, that I slipped through the cracks, or tricked fate somehow. Each time another earth angel crosses over, it has me contemplating my mortality. Why am I still here? Really? Honestly sometimes I’m not entirely sure.
But one thing I can tell you is that this has made me very present and more grateful. I am going to to my best to make the Most of my life and LIVE it! I generally try and do that anyways, but I’m ramping it up. No more excuses! For anything!
I hope all of you do as well. Please if you get anything from my middle of the night rambling~ Hold your loved ones closer, actually Tell them how you feel. Be honest. Be loving. Be kind.
Love yourself enough to let go of those relationships that are done, so you and the other person can be free to find authentic love. Stop wasting your time and life in misery.
Let go of All your Fears.
Get out of that job you hate-but love to complain about-and actually make change in your life.
Stop waiting. Stop delaying. Stop making excuses and Just Do it!
Go on that trip.
Plan for your future. But never to the expense of not living your Now.
Our time here is limited. That is certain. And we are not always in control of how things shake out, but How You Choose to Live Your Life is Always 100% Entirely Up to You!
I hope you make the most of it.
I am going to. That is how I am going to get over this loss. I am going to live my life Fully. I know that is what she would want me to do. What she would want all of us to do. The girl was Pure Joy when she was here. She lit up a room. She is going to be one Amazing Angel.
And I will see her again someday. And when I do I am going to have some incredible stories to tell her.
But not yet
No, not yet.
- Do not look for me and weep,
- I am not there; I do not sleep.
- I am a thousand winds that blow,
- I am the diamond glints on snow,
- I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
- I am the gentle autumn rain.
- When you awaken in the morning’s hush
- I am the swift uplifting rush
- Of quiet birds in circled flight.
- I am the soft stars that shine at night.
- Do not think of me and cry,
- I am not gone; I did not die.